The Storm Before the Calm

But did you die though?

I'm writing this as I have about 15 min to get ready to leave for the airport. Every time I get ready to go somewhere I get this crazy sense of chaos and anxiety for days leading up to it. Beyond just normal nerves, like I feel an overwhelming sense of "I'm going to die".

I was talking with a friend about it the other day and realized, all my life, whenever I'm getting ready to do something big or different or new I feel like I'm going to die. And it got me thinking...

Every time we decide to jump into something new or different or strange (to us), whether it's traveling and experiencing different cultures, or taking up pole dancing or martial arts or running (insert whatever activity you like). When we make big life choices like moving or changing jobs, getting married or divorced, etc. Part of us will change. The you that sits here and makes the decision and the future you on the other side of that experience aren't the same-and I think that is the part that is terrifying and vulnerable.

There's no going back to whoever you were in past, every experience in life surely changes parts of us. There are parts of us on the other side of (insert your adventure) we can't even imagine. And fuck that is scary and exciting. We're such creatures of comfort we might be miserable right now but terrified to change because we don't know 100% what that change will look like. Parts of us that no longer serve us die so other parts of us can flourish.

I invite you to take time to explore some unknowns this week-no don't run off and get married (unless you really want to of course). Keep it simple: what would it feel like to wake up and wiggle your hips first thing in morning for a week? What would it feel like to dance without music? What would it feel like to walk into your next pole class as if you've never taken class before? (some of you will get that experience in Immersion tonight). What would it feel like to give zero fucks about what your movement looks like and sit still until your body tells you how it wants to move?

Ok, that should keep you busy with stuff to play with while I'm gone. And while I'm here, I'm giving an extra shout out to our amazing staff who will take care of everything you need until I'm back. 

XOXO,

Andrea

PS I had no time to read this over so if there are errors, you all know what I meant lol. And there is some fun stuff coming up so follow our ig if you don't already to stay up to date on everything.